What I've Learned

If the last month and a half has taught me anything, it's that I can do pretty much anything I set my mind to. Even with all the personal shit I've gone through, I've been able to maintain at least a B in every class. Like I haven't gotten anything less than a B on anything while taking 20 credits. I'm pretty proud of myself, given everything that's been going on outside of class. I'd be happy otherwise obviously, but it's a real confidence boost to know that I'm able to do that while not exactly devoting my full attention to school. I'm pretty thankful that I have this unwillingness to let myself do worse than my expectations. I'm not sure if this is a learned trait or just a natural characteristic but whatever it is, I'm glad to have it. Whether what I have to thank my parents' rearing or genetics or some higher power, it's nice. I've also been thankful to have friends and family for support and to distract me from school and other problems when I've needed to.

While school success isn't everything, it's pretty important to me and for me to be able to make it through all this so far without getting grades that aren't acceptable for me is something I'm very happy about and I'm getting more confident overall. Obviously I'm not completely happy about everything but I realized today that how this quarter has gone academically has been pretty remarkable.

I don't like to brag about myself and I hope this doesn't come off as such. I just have this tendency to doubt myself and recent events made that happen again in many aspects. But I feel like I'm correcting that line of thinking finally and my results in school are helping that to happen. I still have more people I can meet and such but things are changing for the better and I'm having a better outlook on how things go on. Only time will tell what will happen but I'm glad I am where I am right now, despite what else has gone on.